Why? again and again and again.....

Why is it when something is going ok it seems to end up wrong, especially with friends!!!!!! My only real friend is now probably going to move schools. I fell like the biggest outsider when i have no friends and its almost like i'm ignored and to be honest i hate it. I know that at times i laugh at everything and it might look like i'm happy on the outside but i'm really crying and sad on the inside. It doesn't happen all the times just really when i feel alone. Well not to drop my life in your hands, whoever is reading this, so i think i will just live life no matter what comes at me. I just have to push through it all.

Basketball!!!!

Tody was so great!!! The jv team( i'm on it) we won against pioneer. IT WAS AMAZINGLY AMAZING!!!!!!! I can't wait until we win again it's such a great feeling.....

Why?

Why? Why does everything you do matter to someone? It doesnt make sence to be mad or anything to anyone for any reason. People get mad and a moments it's ok to but at other moments it makes no sence to, talk it over and move on. I really strongly believe in the saying "you don't know someone until you walk around in there shoes". I really only beleive in it because its true there is no way you can really go around the fact that you don't know someone as well as you thought. Why do what kids say matter? If they say something to you, as long as you know that it isn't true it shouldn't matter that the say anything. In anything of everything it all comes down to you. You have the choice of listening to people but you also have the choice not to listen to them.

Geometry!!!!! : /

Some people believe it to be easy to learn, but personally its hard. Its easy to remember the different equations but lets just say my teacher is confusing. He is hard to understand which is causing a small problem with my grade. So i do all my classwork and i get A' s on them but my test are really bad. My teacher has a really deep spanish accent. It's really hard to understand him because for example when he say'a mirror it comes out as moroow. I just can't seem to understand. I'M SO STRESSED!!!!!!

Happy Endings!!!!

People say happy endings are never going to happen, but for some people they do. Images in your head of happy endings i guess might have to do with finding that one person you just wait for, your whole life. Some of them are doing everything so perfect its hard to no ones is. It's how people sometims just want them to have it all, in a way everyone has there happy endings. Happy endings don't always consists of all those things but really just doing things that make you happy. So people don't find tha one person, life is not going to end because of it, just keep looking. I guess it all comes down to you, in a way, and the choices you make.

Life!

Life. It has it's ups and downs, never knowing when and what's going to happen. People think of life almost to just be living and in way it is, on the other hand it kind of goes with the whole not knowing what you have until its gone deal. You might feel that at times there is no use of living but if think twice there is a lot to live for. For one, you could lose something so dear to your heart, just wishing you would die or leave isn't always the answer and sometimes you just have to hold on and push through it all. I find that all you really need is a little faith. You don't need people, though comfort from them feels nice, you really just need faith. The second thing is never being accepted, there is no point in changing yourself just to fit in. If the people who care about really care they like you for you. Even though there are many more opsticles, just don't give up, it's not worth it.

Change!!!!

Things change and you might not always like it or at times you love it, but what I am trying to say is that you can't always dwell on them, sometimes you have to move on. I have had a lot of changes, some i wish would never had happened and some i totally am grateful for. I have lost friends and will always want them back, but i can't be sorry all the time. I have made so many new and exciting friends that I have kind of moved on, at least part of me has. I can imagine what i would do without them and even though I wish my old ones would come back, things don't always happen the way you want them to. For now I live in the present and not dwell in the past.

Smiles!!!! :) and Laughter!!!!

Everything is always better when you laugh and smile. Smiling is like a new begging, almost. When your sad you could smile, most of the time it ends up leading to laughter.Laughter is almost like a better and bigger step than smiling. I love to smile and laugh. I laugh over the smallest things, even though it might not be funny. I also love making other people laugh.I find to be a waste of time to be mad, depressed, or even sad. I guess there are exceptions for being sad, but besides that i think everyone should smile and laugh.

Halloween!!!! BOO!

I love halloween, it's a time to dress up and be something your not for one day. Personally i love it because it's almost like a brake from reality and even though it's notreally a break. It's fun to become a witch, goast, or anything you could emagine. I can't wait for it, it's just one week away.

Music!!!

Everyone has to like music, if you don't your crazy. If you think about it, music has meaning to it. Their is so many different kinds, your bound to find one you like. For example their is country, rap, rock, alternative rock, pop, r&b, and many more. Lyrics in music are so real even if they haven't actually happened to the person who sing's the song it happens in life. The lyrics are almost a way of venting for a singer. I really love music, i think its the best thing to really almost ever happen. I love to sing, even though i'm shy, i love it. I can listen to music from the moment i wake up until I fall asleep. Music is GREAT!!!

My So Called Life

My So Called Life has to be one of the best shows i have ever watched. It is everything you could possibly think of and more. It is like watching high school and seeing every problem teenagers go through. It's really almost like a reality check, for us teenagers. It shows how we go under peer preasure, how sometimes we just want to go away and think, how we deal with the opposite sex , and the way we think, from our point of view. You have to see it.

Surfing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have you ever been surfing? It's so much fun! I went to Santa Cruz to celebrate my birthday, i went surfing. At the beggining i was a little scared but after being in the water i got comfortable with it. I have been surfing pleanty of times but i still get scared. My cousin Angelina went with me and she learned how to surf. We tried to stand up but we fell, a lot. The farthest we got to almost standing was our knees. If you have never been surfing, you should!!!

People!!!!!

Have you seen a person who judges you and doesn't even know you? Well i have, it sucks! People look at me as if i was a statue and guess what, i'm not. I'm tired of gossip and people saying things about you. If people actually get to know you and see who you are then maybe they could stop talking about you and start talking to you. Why can't eveyone just be nice, laugh, not say rumors, and just stop juding, trust me eveything would be so much better off that way.

Who Am I ?

Who are You? Have you ever wondered or thought that there is always more to you than you know? Have you ever let someone see you but know that its not always the whole you? For example, if you were to take a look at me I'm sure you would think oh she is just a girl who looks like she would be lazy or not smart. If you got to know me you start to see the real me. Like my friends probably still don't know that i love to sing or i love to cook and want to run my own bakery. The point is that no matter how someone looks there is always more that meets the eye.

What is love? <3

What is love? Can someone please explain  it to me. I know that there is friendly love, family love, and the love that takes a while to find, unless your lucky. Friendly love is basically the kind where you love like a best friend or people who are just really good, nice friends. Then comes the family love, it's when you love family and people who you grew up with and are super close with. The last kind of love that I know of is the true love, not just any thing but the whole thing. The kind of love where no matter what you do the other person will always love you. The kind of love where they love you for you, when you get butterflies in your stomach, when its the small things they do that just make you melt, when you feel every emotion at almost the same time, that kind of true love. What i don't understand is why people do stupid things for love. Why do people do that? Do people feel more complete or that they have to do something to deserve the person you love's attention or what because I don't understand. If you can explain it please tell me.   

Algebra 1

Last year was one of the best years of school, so far. I made new friends and still kept the old. My most favorite subject of last year was Algebra 1. Thanks to Ms. Pillai it was great. In her class I got to learn but have so much fun. My friend Robert and i laughed at almost everything. We got in so much "fake" trouble, it was like we would mess around and have fun while still doing everything. We made friends with a guy named Huy, he is so funny. All of us use to almost do anything but were good.

CRAZY GREEKS!!!!!

Why are greeks so crazy when it comes to family? The story of Oedipus has such a twisted way with family. For example, Oedipus had sexual relations with his own mother, then had children with her, and after that killed his father. Oedipus is so twisted, he marries a dead kings wife and had children with her too. Once he heard his son was suppose to kill him, so he tied his sons ankles together and leaves him on a mountain to die. What kind of a parent would do that? I know that if i had kids i would just hit them upside there heads...I'm kidding, but i wouldn't kill them. It seems that parents who would do that are just cucu-cachu. Well you tell me if you would do that.

Great Friends!!!! :)

So my friends are the best ever. They make me laugh and smile everyday. I feel lucky to have people who could put up with my weird and randomness. My friend Robert is always laughing at me and making me laugh. Last year i met him in my Algebra 1 class and ever since then we have been friends. My sister Sara is one of my friends, even though she is family, we do almost everything together. She is truly everything and more. She is loud and out there, but thats why i love her so much. We have are ups and downs, but who doesn't. My friend Corrina is a wonderful, caring person. She has been my friend for almost 6 years and she is going to be my friend forever. She is trully a great friend. I will always be there for her, i hope she does the same for me. I trully love my friends, they know me really good. I hope we stay friends forever. I don't know what i would do without them. I always have more friends but these are the ones I hang out a lot more now.

my first loco! post

HI! It's my first post and its weird because I have never really ever had a blog. I am starting to love the movie/ t.v. show my so called life. It's a really good movie/ tv show thing, i can relate to the main character. The main character seems really confused about the whole high school, boys, thing. I really feel that i can relate to the main character only because I am going through the same thing, liking boys and understanding the whole high school thing. I understand the whole trying to connect with new friends and making new ones to. I fell that at school old friends sometimes do grow old and at times you feel like rebelling and making friends with the best people. In the show Rayann seems like not the best person, but she does seem fun and funny to hang out with. So she isn't the smartest but she is fun and seems like the she could make someone laugh. I have never really seemed to actually connect with any t.v. show, but it is a really good show.